sab·o·tage (sāb'ə-täzh')
1. Treacherous action to defeat or hinder a cause or an endeavor; deliberate subversion.
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I feel really, really sick. I have yet again proven my own point—I am not always right. Usually, I am wrong. I suck a majority of the time. I am a disapointment. I could do better.

You reap what you sew.

But God is good even in the midst of it.